
Written: April 4, 2008 @ 11:11pm
I sit.
I sit with my eyes closed and my hands to my head.
Many thoughts of my past flash back and forth.
I'm not selfish.
Selfish would be to ask why I've been hurt,
why I've smiled,
why I've achieved,
why I've failed.
I am not unworthy.
I am worthy for who's in my life,
worthy of the ups and downs that i've tasted,
worthy of the path I'm chosen to walk down.
I lay.
I lay down with my eyes averted to the ceiling.
In which I grasp the deals and decisions I've made.
I don't know where I'm going.
Only know where I've been,
enough to guide me from one step to the next.
I'm not ungrateful.
I am accepting to all things made for me,
all things that's not destined to be mine.
I am not unthankful.
I am glad for what has been given to me,
thankful for things I shouldn't come across.
I pray.
I pray with my hands clasped together in silence.
Why do I have this life,
I do not know but I live anyway.
Why does my heart open and close,
yet I still have it whole.
I am retrieiving empowerment,
absorbing every good and every bad.
I am not homeless,
for I have the shelter of love protecting me.
Who am I?
Who am I to regret that i'm living this life.
This life that's been given to me, without any questions asked.
I am not walking behind anyone,
nor am I a shadow.
I am dreaming, breathing, believing.
Life is my destiny and I accept.
I am I,
I am who I am,
I am,
simply,
Me.
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I don't know what I was gonna come out with when I started this poem. But apparently from finishing the poem and then re-reading it. It's basically a empowerment poem that basically has the underlying factor saying I know who I am and I'm thankful therefore I embrace it. =] I love writing because you never know what you're gonna write about, but once you're done and read it.. You are able to find out exactly what you're thinking and feeling at that very moment. It's a pretty sweet thing. You get to learn more about yourself=]. At least thats how I feel everytime I write... Haha, okay well goodnight then. I'm so tired!
xoxo,
Kristine