girlicious - t15.

Written: December 23, 2008 @ 10:48pm

eight-two-threes and heartbreak.
i need to get this off my chest.
not quite sure why i always let it phase me,
but i just need to write.
i need to write because i hate it,
and i don't want to feel it anymore.
as much as i try to dismiss everything,
i find myself lingering on what could be, what could of been.
sometimes i just want to throw in the towel,
let my heart take it from here.
but i gotta be smart, don't let it overcome me.
i know in the deepest of the depths,
that i am not alone in this.
i just want to leave reality for a bit,
go wander and float in a world where no one else,
but who matters, and only matters, is in it.
sometimes i just want to scream out loud,
hit the cold hard pavement with my fists.
blame the stars for cursing my heart,
and point my finger at god knows who and ask why?
can i express all of it?
i know, for a damn fact, i'm not the only one who wants to confess.
i can't and don't want to take it anymore,
because i do not want to look back over my shoulder,
over and over, over and fuckin over, always and over again.

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vent-ilicious.

xoxo,
Kristine

Closet Thing I Could Write About Love.

Written: December 21, 2008 @ 7:31pm

everyday i get lost in the deeply covered grange of your expressions

and i search upon the stars to find a twinkle in your astonishing eyes

i breathe your scent into mines as it fills every nerve
to the tips of my fingers

and my thoughts begin to fog as i close my eyes
and picture the beautiful of your face

i cannot explain the rush of fluid tingles as my fingers feel for yours

and i cannot define my own beliefs as i see the
truth escaping of your every pore

there isn't much i can say but the pinnacle of
euphoria you've unlocked in me

nor can i express the definite arrays of
sunlight that beams off your love

i've never been enclosed so tight within a rose that smells so sweet

nor have i the strength to dismay the petals of
security you peel for me

there is no definition for the purity of your
mesmerizing hold i've been drawn to

nor an explanation of how deep within the oceans of
your heart i've fallen through

if i had words to explain my love for you--

they would run faster than the wind,

soar higher than the stars,

tower higher than the mountains,

but that is not all--

for once in my life, words don't seem enough

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hey! i promised you guys a poem right? Lol, so there you go. I've been itching to write a very deep love poem, and that's all i could come up with at the moment. hahaha. i tried. lols [: i don't have much to work with, if you know what i mean... hahahahaha. but when that day comes, i'm sure it'll be more mushy for you guys! lolll. okay well until next time... in case i don't come back soon, i'll wish you guys a very Merry Christmas and Happy New Year!

xoxo,

Kristine

The Art of Being Single

The Art of Contentment.
For most of us, being single will be more of a phase than a final destination. This is the best place to practice the art of contentment. Someday, I'm sure most of us will fall in love and get married. But the thing is, love will always be tested. Someone more handsome,beautiful, more charming, richer, funnier, sweeter would come along. If you have not practiced the art of contentment as a single person, chances are you would be tempted to want that and not cherish your chosen one. Practicing the Art of Contentment as a single person means that you take what life gives you, good or bad, you're willing to see it through. It means you don't walk away everytime things get tough because it builds in you patience, perseverance, understanding and a hundred different virtues that people in a hurry will never have. Being single means you would find how it feels to be alone thus, allowing you to cherish every moment you spend with your chosen one. The art of contentment means you wouldn't mind if life had to make you wait for so long to find the love of your life, because you know that the waiting would only make the finding much sweeter.

A Time to Know Yourself Better.
Being single is a time of your life when you can get to know yourself better. You can pursue different interest and passions without having to ask another person's approval. It is a phase when you can keep focus on other things, discover your potentials and talents, and see yourself become more than what you expect to be. Allow yourself to surprise you. Stop wasting precious energy trying to figure out why you're still romantically unattached. It's all in the mind. Take the time to go see your friends, spend time with your family, do charity work and you will realize that you are not, and never for one moment, was alone. Try to get to know yourself first before you try to get to know other people. To be truly loved means to be known and accepted for who you are. How do you expect other people to know you and to love you, when you don't know who and what you really are?A Choice Between Good and Best. Sometimes the dilemmas we face are not between what is absolutely bad and absolutely good. Sometimes, it's between good and best. Treat this stage of your life as a phase to evaluate who is good for you and who is best for you. Sometimes, you won't hear music, or feel magic to know who's best for you. The heart just knows and it doesn't need any romantically charged scenario to decide on the matter. Trust in your heart, and trust that time will eventually lead you to, not to the perfect partner, but to the most suitable partner for you. Being single is a phase of life that we need to be thankful for, because being single means our hearts have yet to choose the best one for us.

Take Your Time, the World Will Wait.
Being married doesn't guarantee that it will make your life happy. It doesn't guarantee anything at all. Sometimes, it only brings two miserable people together only to make their life even more miserable. Without the right intention, the emotional maturity, financial security and of course, unwavering love, you're better off unattached.Living Life. Don't put your life on hold for Mr. and Mrs. Right but don't let it waste away with Mr.or Mrs. Wrong. Life is about things that you do and happen to you everyday. It's not about the things that could have happened but never did, or things that you think would happen in the future. Live life now. Live it to the fullest and stop beating yourself up, trying to be perfect on a Saturday night date. Allow life to surprise you with it's most wonderful blessings.

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found this on Leslie's page, and i loved it [: thought i should share with you all!

sorry i haven't posted a poem in a while, i promise i'll have one up soon!

xoxo,
Kristine