Goodbye 2009, Hello 2010!

Wow.... Where the hell did 2009 go?!

Like all years... this year flew by fast. but it was one hell of a crazy year!! i think 2009 has proved how much FAMILY means. with everything that happened with my brother, thank you God for hearing our prayers and helping him and our family keep through that very hard time. also, baby girl Kalea came into our life! a blessing like no other! she is the most beautiful little baby in the world, and she puts a smile on each and every of our faces.. she was a great good coming after the hard times=) and other things... that has shown how much FAMILY is what gets you through... i don't think anything else has been very prominent in this year. basically just FAMILY... like everything else that happened this year has blown over my head that i can't even really remember what the hell happened! hahaha. i don't really know if that's a good or bad thing, but yeahhh.. lol. i just really want to stress how much i want to thank the goodness of having a very supportive and understanding family.. i mean without them, i don't think i would have stayed strong throughout that hard time.. you know, you go through life thinking it's easy breezy, and when something huge happens.. you just can't believe you took ANYTHING or ANYONE forgranted in your life.. what i learned from these past few months is that you really can't just live life not giving a fcuk... yes, you have to live life but you can't live it recklessly... you never know what is going to happen.. you will never know if it's your last day or come what may... it's really crazy!! like, what happened with my brother was literally the craziest and hardest time that i've ever been through in my 20 years of living... dont EVER.. EVER.. hold grudges.. dont EVER EVER take someone forgranted.. and dont EVER EVER leave things unsettled.. ferreal man.. feeling that feeling of not knowing whether or not you will be able to speak to someone you love and care about and not being able to say how much you love them is the hardest thing to go through.. and i am SO GLAD that my family and i got another chance to tell my brother everything we neeeded to say, and need to say now and in the future.. i've learned that you really CAN'T think there is another day later on to say what you need to say, but really there isn't... there isn't a right time... so please, if you have ANYTHING to say to ANYONE.. make sure you don't hold it in.. make sure you let them know exactly how you are feeling before it's too late.. believe me, it's not a good feeling at all, AT ALL... i know it may seem like the hardest thing to do, to tell someone what you feel.. but it's necessary.. that goes for everyone! whether it's a friend, a girlfriend or boyfriend, a brother, a sister, a mother, a father... it's an equal standard.. if you care enough, you should NOT NOT act like you don't care... life is too short to keep things in... feel me?? so if you need to say ANYTHING to ANYONE.. go ahead and do it.. do it for yourself, do it for that person... i mean why the hell not right? it's going to be a new year, a new dawn too... might as well start the new year fresh, with no skeletons in your closet... even if it may be the most minute thing, or if its the biggest deal if your life.. don't put it off, don't wait until later... you never know what life has in store.. so be honest, be real, FEEL... yeah.. haha.

WELL! hahaha. apart from all that! i really can't recall anything else that happened this year.. i did a lot of partying though i know that! hahah well up until i had to stop using my alias LOL but i had a good ass run.. really good run! but it's all good.. 21 in 3 months=) ahhaa. hmm what else happened??? damn nothing else huh? no juicy love stories.. had my share of feelings here and there.. and obviously it wasn't solid enough to make it out of the year.. it's all good though, you live and you learn.. you still care though.. yeah, i still care.. but i care only from a distance.. which is alright, because that's how things pan out i guess? its the unconditional stuff, and i'm sure everyone has felt that.. you just care, because you just want the best for them! haha yeah.. hmm what else?? yeah, same shit different day basically... school, chill, go out.. hahah =P

BUT... now that i think of it.. this is my last year in Sacramento! oh mannn. 2010 is going to be MAJOR! hahah.. like i can't stress how fckin ecstatic i am! i am finally going to move to SF for school.. time for a new life.. new city, new friends, new life.. i'm sure 2010 will be my start for a very inspirational and dynamic life.. i just feel it.. i feel like San Francisco is where I was supposed to end up.. and truthfully and honestly, i feel that with my heart... and the school i am going to go to, Academy of Art University.. like ferreal when i visited the campus.. i just felt the inspiration flowing out of me.. i know that sounds hella funny, but like mannn... i felt at HOME there... i felt like i knew thats where i was supposed to be there, to grow into the person i am supposed to be... hahah. here in Sacramento, i felt like i was just floating on by.. not giving a care in the world.. just paddling away.. and just the thought of being able to start over and start a new life in the city that i love next year..is beyond words! i really can't wait.. and although i will miss Sacramento.. there's really nothing left for me here.. besides my family of course! hahah. but really though, i just really believe that I will get where I want to be in San Francisco.. really get to that pinnacle of happiness there.. and that's what i've been searching for for 20 years.. to really be happy.. genuinely happy...=) yeahh.... hahaha. 2010 is not ready for me! haha 21 years old... and living in the City.. =)

HMMM... well that is my 2009-2009 blog... it was a very crazy year to say the least... but everything worked out SO WELL... had so many blessings at the end of the year.. and i have the MAN ABOVE to thank.. without him, i wouldn't have my brother and my niece today=) THANK YOU=) but alright buddddiess.. i hope everyone had a very fulfilling year, despite all of the drama or setbacks you have gone through.. just remember you live and you learn.. and REMEMBER to NEVER take anyone or anything forgranted! i wish you all a very Happy New Year and just know with time passing by, life will get better. 2010, you will be a VERY GOOD YEAR=)

xoxo,
Kristine