blank screen.
blink, blink, blink; there goes the cursor.
how, in fact do I explain?
[that smile and frown, simultaneous.
that skip of the heart, the sinking of it too.
sigh of happiness, sigh of uneasiness.
that head against the wall with lips curved up,
but the shake of the head as it all sinks in.
don't know how to feel, don't know what to feel.]
thoughts swimming around trying to find it's rest place,
reasons stopping what actually wants to take pace.
stuck between priorities and mind sets,
softened by feelings and daydreams.
want and need to know where it's all going,
but too afraid to even grasp where it could be heading.
[that smile and frown, simultaneous.
that skip of the heart, the sinking of it too.
sigh of happiness, sigh of uneasiness.
that head against the wall with lips curved up,
but the shake of the head as it all sinks in.
don't know how to feel, don't know what to feel.]
fighting with myself as I'm trying to figure it out,
but all I could do is shake my head in doubt.
here's that time where my walls are built up high,
not because I'm hiding but to see if it's even worth the try.
mind and soul is cradled in a cocoon of insecurity,
all I need is that one moment of reason to believe it'll be sturdy.
[that smile and frown, simultaneous.
that skip of the heart, the sinking of it too.
sigh of happiness, sigh of uneasiness.
that head against the wall with lips curved up,
but the shake of the head as it all sinks in.
don't know how to feel, don't know what to feel.]
full screen.
words, words, words; there goes the truth.
how, in fact can I believe it?
blink, blink, blink; there goes the cursor.
how, in fact do I explain?
[that smile and frown, simultaneous.
that skip of the heart, the sinking of it too.
sigh of happiness, sigh of uneasiness.
that head against the wall with lips curved up,
but the shake of the head as it all sinks in.
don't know how to feel, don't know what to feel.]
thoughts swimming around trying to find it's rest place,
reasons stopping what actually wants to take pace.
stuck between priorities and mind sets,
softened by feelings and daydreams.
want and need to know where it's all going,
but too afraid to even grasp where it could be heading.
[that smile and frown, simultaneous.
that skip of the heart, the sinking of it too.
sigh of happiness, sigh of uneasiness.
that head against the wall with lips curved up,
but the shake of the head as it all sinks in.
don't know how to feel, don't know what to feel.]
fighting with myself as I'm trying to figure it out,
but all I could do is shake my head in doubt.
here's that time where my walls are built up high,
not because I'm hiding but to see if it's even worth the try.
mind and soul is cradled in a cocoon of insecurity,
all I need is that one moment of reason to believe it'll be sturdy.
[that smile and frown, simultaneous.
that skip of the heart, the sinking of it too.
sigh of happiness, sigh of uneasiness.
that head against the wall with lips curved up,
but the shake of the head as it all sinks in.
don't know how to feel, don't know what to feel.]
full screen.
words, words, words; there goes the truth.
how, in fact can I believe it?
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dot.dot.dot... hahhaah. That's all I have to say about what the back of my mind is thinking right now. Haha, freaking amazing how poetry affects me. It clears my head tremendously! Lol. But mmmyea, alright goodnight! Until next time I need to vent=)
xoxo,
Kristine
dot.dot.dot... hahhaah. That's all I have to say about what the back of my mind is thinking right now. Haha, freaking amazing how poetry affects me. It clears my head tremendously! Lol. But mmmyea, alright goodnight! Until next time I need to vent=)
xoxo,
Kristine
